The Journey

I figured I would first talk about my journey of dating and what has lead me to where I am today.  Through out high school as well as college I was just not a big dater or into relationships for that matter.  I had one boyfriend in high school and then two in college so to say I was beyond in experienced going into my early twenties was an understatement.  It also felt that the guys I dated were all still trying to figure out themselves which I didn't care for because at the time I was 100% confident on who I thought I was and what I wanted, man I was a fool then.  I made the choice at the age of 16 to not have sex until I was married which at the very much fit me and my beliefs and to be honest never was a battle for me and the men I dated never walked away because of it.  So at the age of 23 I had been out of college for a few years and finally had a little more dating experience but at this point still had only been in one relationship that lasted a year.....can we say commitment phobe, which if you knew me then you would have never guessed it.  At the age of 23 I would theman I would be with for the next 5 years.  He knew my thoughts on sex right away and was good with it.  I was what I though head over heals in love within six months but lets not kid ourselves I still knew nothing about love at that point but two years into the relationship I finally started to realize what I was looking for and he was not it, but like a lot of woman I settled for at least three more years with him.  Over those next three years it caused some strain on my relationship with my parents and I became someone else.  In that last year I found myself almost cheating on him, which was my wake up call and ended it a month later and yes in those five years sexually that man got pretty much nothing, yes I know crazy!  The breakup was nothing emotional for me since I stopped caring after 2 years so I started dating right away at the age of 28 and holly crap it was not the same as when I was 23.  Between the age of 28 and almost thirty I had been on a number of dates and really learned what I was looking for in a partner and at some point had changed my views on sex and waiting until marriage but still had not made that leap yet with anyone.

  A key note about me is that I have never really been able to trust people into my life and never have been much to express a lot of emotion or tell even friends my struggles in life, my core friends now are the people I trust more than anyone now though.

So 29 and yes still a virgin but near the end of my 29 years I meet someone who changed that and opened my eyes to what love really felt like........