Life will always be filled with questions... Ones that make you think, ones to challenge you, ones to make you laugh, and ones that drive you crazy or even pissy. Also, we live in a world that people forget to think before they ask certain questions without intent to harm.
Seriously, this week I was asked the same question by at least a handful of people and the one question that puts my insecurities in place. "Why aren't you married Kelly "? If I knew the answer to that question then maybe I would be married don't ya think? I want to be married once so if that means I am single until I am 35 then I am good with that.
Getting married/commitment means to me supporting my other half anything that makes him smile, never going to bed angry, play like kids, challenge each other daily, planned surprises, meeting each other needs in all realm of life, never giving up even if it means a few months of a rough patch , staying in bed all day, weekly date nights....my list goes on and I refuse to lower my standards, which people keep telling me I need to do. This is the one area of life that I am greedy.
***Hate That I Love You *** - Rhianna
Monday, January 21, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
It's been almost a month since my last post, one because I have stopped dating and two trying to live in the moment and stop worrying about the future. So this has lead me to change my focus of my blog more on my journey of life even though some parts are dysfunctional and other parts pure humorous.
Holidays are my favorite time of year, christmas lights, cold weather, food, family time and little unforgettable moments. However, when your single and your family now consists of you and your parents and add career business revolves around this season, which the crazies come out it tends to be on the lonley side. It's been 5 years since I have spent the holidays with someone I truly care for and took the time to find a gift that would create that irresistible smile. That moment is all I wanted from Santa Claus this year and it was even delivered right to my doorstep, but communication interfered, but by the end of the year 2012 I still was blessed with a few of those moments with someone I have truly come to love. Yes, I am still single and not dating so I know your trying to figure out how that is possible. This is where that dysfunctional part comes into play while also the part of trying to just be happy and live in the moment. I know there is a 50% chance in the end I could get hurt but when you find someone who is able to turn a crazy bad day into an amazing one and makes you question aspects of life through conversations then you cherish the time that has been allowed instead of worry about what the future holds.
Don't get me wrong, I want the whole romantic package with this guy but have learned that timing is not up to me so just let go and live life.
New Year.... Bring on new work challenges, new moments and new life challenges
Holidays are my favorite time of year, christmas lights, cold weather, food, family time and little unforgettable moments. However, when your single and your family now consists of you and your parents and add career business revolves around this season, which the crazies come out it tends to be on the lonley side. It's been 5 years since I have spent the holidays with someone I truly care for and took the time to find a gift that would create that irresistible smile. That moment is all I wanted from Santa Claus this year and it was even delivered right to my doorstep, but communication interfered, but by the end of the year 2012 I still was blessed with a few of those moments with someone I have truly come to love. Yes, I am still single and not dating so I know your trying to figure out how that is possible. This is where that dysfunctional part comes into play while also the part of trying to just be happy and live in the moment. I know there is a 50% chance in the end I could get hurt but when you find someone who is able to turn a crazy bad day into an amazing one and makes you question aspects of life through conversations then you cherish the time that has been allowed instead of worry about what the future holds.
Don't get me wrong, I want the whole romantic package with this guy but have learned that timing is not up to me so just let go and live life.
New Year.... Bring on new work challenges, new moments and new life challenges
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